Abortion is...

I was pregnant with my youngest daughter and I just had my 3rd child about a year from that time and I just didn't want to have another baby back to back like that.

I reasoned with myself that the best thing for me to do was to get an #abortion.

I thought.. I can't afford another baby, who's gonna help me with all these kids, I didn't want to end up a single mom with all these kids and then who's gonna want me with 4 kids already... so I said NOPE, I can't do this!!

During that time my childrens' father didn't even want no parts in the matter. And so he didn't help me with deciding on the stuation because he was like if that's what you wanna do then do it, I don't care if you do it or not. 😩😩😭

We were both in our early twenties at the time and we just didn't know enough information about abortions and how it would affect and effect our lives. So needless to say, he didn't go with me to the abortion clinic.

So, I get to the clinic, sign in and was sent to the back into a room to start the procedure. And in that moment that's when I started to PANIC!! I ran out the room and went back to my car and smoked about 5 cigarettes back to back. Yes, I smoked cigarettes while I was pregnant!!! 😒😔

Again, I was young and naive and just didn't know any better at the time. But during that time when I was in the car I heard a voice start to speak to me... And I just want to pause right here🙌🏾🙌🏾 and say God is soo good and soo committed to our well-being and our success, even when we knee deep into sin, even when we are not committed to living righteously, even when we don’t wanna have nothing to do with Him-- HE STILL loves us enough to come meet us where we are... and he spoke to me about a decision I was about to make that wasn't good for my future and adcised me on what to do 🙌🏾🙌🏾

So, Holy Spirit, but at the time I didn't know Him but I heard His voice tell me NOT to abort my baby. I began to cry out loud and pray and ask for help and I kept going back and forth with the voice in my head saying, "I can't do this by myself and I'm scared." I WAS SO SCARED. But I heard His voice say to me, "don't worry, I will help you."

And in that moment I felt sooo empowered and I went back in there and I told them that I was leaving and that I wasn't going to go through with the abortion. 😭😩😄☺️😊

And oh my goooddddnneeesss I'm SOO GLAD THAT I DIDN'T.

My daughter is 18 years old now and she has been the BEST THING THAT HAS EVER HAPPEN TO ME outside of salvation.

And God honored His word to me and He helped me in every way. Giving birth to her didn't even feel like I had a fourth kid. She wasn't a burden to me at all. In fact, she's been the biggest blessing to me and to our whole family. She is very peculiar and very special. She is full of wisdom beyond her years and she's extremely talented, skilled, and gifted!! From the moment she was born, she has always shocked and awed us. I'm in tears as I write this because as I remember how I felt in that car that day and fast forward to today and I just, I wouldn't have gotten the chance to know who she was and what she would have become had I aborted her that day.

God blocked me from having an abortion with both my girls and blocked giving legions of demons LEGAL RIGHT to tear my bloodline to pieces. 🙌🏾🙌🏾😭😩☺️😄

Hallelujahhhh!!! THANK YOU JESUS!!

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