Friendly Foes

I just had a breakthrough moment with Abba Father,

For years I was told I was in business with a very bad business partner. The way I saw it, he always seemed to get me what I wanted so to me he was an ally. However the WAY he went about getting me what I wanted wasn't the most legal or ethical of ways. You know what they say birds of a feather flock together & as the bible says in 1 Cor 15:33 "bad company corrupts good character". Personally, I didn't mind however I didn't realize how many people were being hurt & done wrong in the process. I heard people from my grandmother to my mom, to even my wife & kids at times pick up & tell me about this business friend that really secretly was an enemy. Crazy thing is I allowed him to go about his deeds because I benefited & when confronted I would defend him against anyone. What does this have to do with marriage you ask? Good question, one of things that he had access to was intimacy. Intimacy with my wife & I aint just talking about the sexual intimacy either as well as intimacy with my relationship with God. He replaced the supernatural things with superficial things & I allowed it. Intimacy is the core of my 2 main vital relationships, my Father Abba God, & my wife Chi. This frenemy of mine is none other than...selfishness.

The definition of intimacy is close familiarity or friendship. closeness.

I enjoyed the friendship because he always made me number one when in any relationship it's always the others first. The bible says in Philippians 2:3 (NCV) When you do things, do not let selfishness or pride be your guide. Instead, be humble and give more honor to others than to yourselves. It wasn't about what the ones around me wanted, nor was it totally about what the one above me wanted. It was ONLY about what I wanted, I had moments where I sincerely thought about & moved according to the benefit of others. But most of the time it was me. The question is why? I did it because of growing up always seemingly giving away everything to others as much as they wanted & whatever they wanted. However, when it came to me I either didn't get what I wanted or didn't get it the same way I gave it. Other times people would take advantage because they knew I was nice. Either way the enemy along with my already sinful nature & agreement created a force in me to ONLY think of me. It appears innocent, saying "You have protect yourself first" which is true if your doing it from a biblical standpoint. However in that moment the Holy Spirit gives you discernment on who's for you, who isn't, what's right & what isn't. Not you. Intimacy turns your selfishness into selflessness. I have confessed & repented to the Lord so that my heart can be one service rather than focusing on being served.

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